What am I supposed to do when I feel my emotions as strongly as I do? I hate you but I love you. Its a constant battle within myself, a continuous clashing of both sides of my heart and my head. My brain is telling me my emotions are over exaggerated but my heart is telling me that I am being unfair to myself and can feel what I want. Or maybe its switched? I don’t know anything anymore. I feel so much and it gets so overwhelming. How do I tone it down? Its getting impossible to focus on my life now because all I can focus on is before and after. Why did I do that? What will I do next year? How can I change the person I am into who I want to be? All of these questions are great! But not a single one needs to be answered right now. I just need to figure out how to change my perspective to see what is ahead of me instead of what I am afraid of, because I am afraid of everything right now. Not for my life, but for what it could be and how I plan to get there. Im scared I will never be enough for myself or others and that I will never be the person I want to be. How do I change myself with complete changing who I am? And the biggest question… why the heck is it so hard to figure it all out?